So, eight weeks ago I decided I was going to make a huge change in my life. I was going to give up the junk and take in the healthy. I lost 4 pounds in my first week. That’s so motivational. And after that nothing else came off. I mean it did. But only a pound or a half a pound. It’s a little discouraging. I’m not terribly overweight. I just know I need to be smaller… Well, not necessarily smaller just toned. And to get toned you need to work out. Oh no. The “w” word. I plan out amazing, fun, great workouts. It’s just the follow through I struggle with. I will do them for a few days and then give up cause I’m tired or “I’ll do it later.” Well, later never comes. And then I stop all together. So in the last eight weeks I’ve worked out, maybe, 12 times. Which is a start. I know it’s totally common to fall off the wagon when going through such a drastic and life changing process. But it’s extremely discouraging. That discouragement leads me to Oreos and Ben and Jerry’s Ice Cream. Which makes me sad enough to re-motivate myself.
But as I get re-motivated to stay on the plan I see that my mom bought potato chips or my boss bought more cookies. They are just right there. Calling my name. Whispering, “Taylor, I’m delicious. Eat me. I promise I won’t hurt you.” But they do! They totally interfere with my points value for the day or with just my overall mood of the day.
So, tomorrow, on Fat Tuesday, I will eat my paczki and then give up cookies, brownies, cake, candy bars, ice cream and all the other sweet goodies. I will take my life back. I will make a difference and change for the better. I need to. Or I will never be happy with myself. It’s sad, I know. But I am not happy and I need to be.
I need some support from the wonderful community on tumblr though. From other men and women trying to change their lives for the better. For women seeking that self confidence that I so badly desire to find. I am going to blog meals and workouts and more meals. And snacks. So, reblog me. Or comment on my posts. Send me a note saying, “Hey, you rock!” Or “Keep it up girl, you can do it!”
It makes a world of difference when the world is behind you and backing you up. So, don’t be afraid to tell your story or to dig deep and find that motivation for change. We can do this together!